Recently in Introspection Category
Tonight after a fabulous steak dinner at RingSide, I was given an intervention by my
co-workers.
You're working too much.
You need to stop working when you're on vacation.
Don't burn out.
I thought I had established a good work/life balance - but they are right; I was on vacation last week and I never quite "left" work. Technically, what I have is a work/Jerry balance - which is perhaps part of the problem - no time for "me", no time for me and Eriko.
I have vacation coming up next week, so this is a wonderful opportunity to step back from work a bit - and probably step back from the computer a bit as well. I need to figure out a plan for the Jetta (and the MG); it's not going to sell (or fix) itself.
This is going to be easier said than done...
I have lost my way. While my current position is fun (at times) and is providing me with new experiences, I don't feel as if I'm moving towards anything.
Why am I still at work?
Good salary.
Convenient.
Comfortable.
Big investment.
Lack of alternatives.
I work hard, long and most days I am excited to head into the office.
Honestly, I seem to be operating off of hope more than reality - most of what I do I tend to feel unsatisfied with.
A case of unrealistic expectations?
I'm torn between fearing that I'm letting another opportunity pass me by and abandoning the hope that work will "pay out".
That's the rub - would I still be here if I had sold all my shares at $ 10?
Dad always told me to find something you love and the rest will take care of itself - the lack of fulfillment at work is creeping - it has become much more about the result than the journey - and on that note, I am completely lost.
Work has been keeping me pretty darn busy as of late (which isn't a bad thing, considering that I still have a job...)
The rest of my time is occupied by my favorite guy - Jerry!
Isilon and Jerry... I've been on several trips recently - to Atlanta, Austin, and soon Los Angeles. Jerry keeps me really busy, from the moment I get home until the moment I leave the next door. We've been having a ball.
He made two verbal slips that were pretty funny recently - we were talking about fruits and donuts and he accidentally said "banut" (banana donut). As soon as the word came out, we both started laughing. There was a look of surprise on his face. Today, the same thing happened - he wanted to watch Bee Movie and instead said "Boomie". He's has become a very effective communicator, very fast.
I had a communication success of my own yesterday - I gave a lecture at UW; Hank Levy gave me the honor of teaching about Isilon's OneFS for his CSE 451 course. It was a pleasure and I think I did a bang-up job.