i am fucked

i can’t concentrate on work, i can’t figure out my homework

my body wants to do nothing but drink water

my mind wants to do nothing but figure you out

i’m scared; i’m alone

i don’t know if you need me or my money

i know that doubt is part of everything; i feel it now

it tears me up; it kills my motivation; it destroys my confidence

it isn’t your fault; nothing is; this is my doubt, my worry

i hate it, but it is part of who i am, something i must learn to live with, something i must learn to be proud of

as i am proud of the man i am; even though i can’t see that now