reflections on a rainy day

in writing an email to Susie, i finally put into a complete thought what i’ve slowly been figuring out… i have the ability to put really high expectations on people. i’ve seen this several times lately. i had really high expectations that mom wasn’t supposed to express dissatisfaction with dad; i had high expectations of Susie and Brian’s time; and most of all, i always have extremely high expectations of my girlfriends. i’ve really had to learn to acknowledge this with Eriko as i put expectations on her that are unreasonable for anyone else in my life, including people who have known me from birth. it is nice to figure out stuff like this because it gives me a “notecard” to refer to when i don’t feel at peace. now i’ve got to start considering whether the expectations are most strongly placed on myself… leading to unnecessary frustration… and no motivation…